Saturday, June 29, 2013

I’m Starting With The Man In The Mirror

I'm starting with the man in the mirror,
I'm asking him to change his ways,
And no message could have been any clearer,
If you wanna make the world a better place,
Take a look at yourself and then make a change.
-Michael Jackson-

Lately I've spent a tremendous amount of time unhappy and in a worrisome state of mind.  Unfortunately I've also discovered that the more I worry, the less happy I become.  After a lot of reflection, it has become apparent to me that my unhappiness is caused by a pervasive sense of helplessness and hopelessness.  I’m a worrier; and I worry about big things: the direction our country is taking, the continuing refusal by most people to admit that their actions are having a profound impact on the climate and our planet, the lack of love and concern shown by most people to those less fortunate than themselves, the avarice and greed of corporations around the world, and so on.  I think that I become hopeless because deep down I realize that there’s nothing I can do to change or impact those situations and people.  Hopelessness breeds inaction and lock-down, inaction breeds depression, depression breeds more hopelessness and helplessness, and the whole thing becomes a vicious downward spiral.

I have become convinced that the only way for me to break out of this spiral is to become actively involved in change that has a chance of succeeding.  And in reality, there’s only one person who I can directly influence toward change…me.  I have so many areas in which I need to change and grow: physical, intellectual, educational and spiritual.  Even the task of changing just one person seems so large as to be impossible, but I have faith that I can change.  I just need to begin with a plan…

Saturday, May 18, 2013

In the beginning...

So here it is: my first blog post.  The title of my blog comes from a song by Crosby, Stills and Nash, entitled Carried Away.  The song isn't really relevant to my blog, but the chorus describes my feelings perfectly:

Moving through my changes as fast as I can,
I'll try to bring a balance to me and the man.
And part of me is screaming to say:
I wanna be carried away.


I'm trying so hard to become what I want to be, but most days I'm so confused and frustrated by the events and people around me, that I just want to be carried away to somewhere else.  So this blog will be an attempt to work through those issues and frustrations.  And hopefully, somewhere along the way, I will finally become the person I want to become.